I feel so scared and alone.

[thewitchesyouwerenotabletoburn]

Namechanged for this.

I have several symptoms that could be vulvar cancer. They probably aren't, it's a very type of cancer, and even rarer in women under 65 - I'm 43.

Nonetheless it's a worry, and my GP has referred me to a specialist and for an ultrasound. I made the ultrasound appointment this morning and put it in the shared calendar DH and I have. His response was to text me and say "please get your mum to collect the kids that day, I have an important meeting I can't miss."

He knows what's going on. He knows I'm scared and why. He knows I have no one else to lean on - my DM is going through her own health problems, and I've been ferrying her around to various appointments lately. Our kids are young, and not doing brilliantly themselves - DD is autistic and has just started puberty, she seems depressed but is surly and uncommunicative, I want to help her but she's keeping me at arms length, so I don't know how. DS is an anxious, sensitive little soul, and he's having a tough time at school, so I'm trying my best to be there for him too.

I know DH is finding life hard atm too. He's very stressed and putting in very long hours at work. His mum is being treated for breast cancer. I'm not expecting much, I just would have liked something more from him than logistics of school pick ups. Just a check in on I'm feeling.

I don't really know why I'm posting this, I just don't feel I have anyone I can talk to IRL, and I'll feel very foolish if I make a fuss and it turns out to be nothing - which it probably will, but I'm still scared.

Sorry you are going through this, you must be so worried. Do you have a friend that could help with the kids that day? And tell your DH what an insensitive turdhead he is when he gets home from his important job 🙄⚘

Thank you. My mum will happily collect the kids, that's not a problem. It's just his complete lack of concern for me. He's decided it's nothing to worry about, so he isn't. Fair enough, I suppose, but he could at least show a bit of awareness for the fact it's worrying me.

It's not for him to decide it's nothing to worry about though. If you're worried, which you have every right to be, then he needs to support you xx