A short relationship that started beginning of this year. I broke up with him for a long list of reasons. It never felt right... sometimes I felt like I just needed to be with someone.
He would do things that made me doubt how serious he was about me, and then when I was walking away would say things like "I sabotaged this because deep down I think you're still speaking to your ex" or "I've fallen for you more than I expected and I panicked". When I say things like you don't know what you want, he will say "I want you but I don't know how to make it work"
I just had a feeling something was off. I didn't feel loved, or even attractive with him. I sent a message saying that I didn't want to continue with this because I sadly didn't trust him. He said he doesn't know how to convince me, and that he doesn't understand but that's fine.
When I saw him next in a group setting I asked if he wanted to speak about it. We had a strained conversation where I asked him if he understood why I didn't trust him. He said "I do understand". He let me speak for a few hours, and at times it was quite odd in that we were almost flirting... he was smirking or teasing how I said stuff, and I was playing up to that a bit. It felt like a conversation were things might be resolved, at least a bit.
He said I was a bitch to him, cold, and needy "I thought I was needy but you're something else".
I asked if we should keep talking over the next few days. He said "should we?" Eventually he answered "no" when I asked if he wanted to. He said "so you ended it, but now you want to see if we can work through it, is that right?" I said yes. He said he was in 2 minds about it.
I get it from one POV. I ended it, why should he give me the time of day? But on the other hand, why let me speak for hours about personal things if he was going to be so dismissive?
I have to see him in person and it hurts. I don't know why.