Had enough of my binge drinking DP

[Conumdrum]

When DD1 was 5 months old he got caught drink driving (and even tried to escape so got done for that to), it was about the third time he'd done it but first time he got caught. Lost licence for 9 months, was v lucky to keep his job and that was only because he had a child to support.

I was so happy before that, but it really broke my heart. He was genuinely devastated and didn't drink for ages.

Then when dd2 was TWO WEEKS old he has a massive binge drinking session on his own one night after I'd gone to bed (only to be woken by him stumbling around in the middle of the night).

On Sat it was his work Christmas Party ... I got woken up by a phone call at 5:30am, he was so drunk that he couldn't get a cab to take him and said he was freezing to death so I had to go and get him. Stupidly I got the kids out of bed and just as I'd got theire shoes and coats on he called to say he'd got one...It completely ruined our plans for Sun (we we're supposed to be going to see Father Christmas at a carol concert in my Granny's barn, something that I have done since childhood and means alot to me and my family) as I have a cold and the lack of sleep meantI was too ill and tired to drive.

I love him dearly and so want things to be different, he won't admit there's a prob, I don't hink he'll ever change. I've had enough and am thinking about leaving him (which is the last thing I ever wanted for my children, my parents divorced when I was bout 3 and I know how crap it is). At the moment, as much as I love my two gorgeous DDs, I wish I'd never had them as it would be so much easier to walk away and I hate the fact that they're family is breaking down.

It may take you leaving for him to realise, and even then it won't necessarily happen straight away. It's often said alcoholics have to reach rock bottom before they can admit to it and start to recover. Has he always drank a lot or has it escalated recently? Sorry you are going through this.

Just making sure you know about this thread, where you might find lots of support.

I've known him for 14 years, even though we've only been together for 7. He's always been a drinker, and enjoyed getting drunk, like lots of people do. But the serious binge drinking episodes started just before he lost his licence about three years ago. He doesn't drink every day, only about twice a week, about 4 cans of beer (still quite alot), but occasionally it gets completely out of control.

He's always under loads of stress at work. He was physically abused by his Dad as a child and had a v rocky childhood. He says he's dealt with it, forgiven his father and moved on, but I think he's just blocked it out. I think he finds the responsibility of fatherhood quite hard to bear even though he loves our two DDs to bits.

Thanks Worm in Manger, will post on there too.