Hi everyone,
So basically I have been with my partner for nearly 8 years now. We have two children together, a 2 year old and 6 year old.
We have had many rough patches throughout our relationship. He has a split personality and goes through funny phases. One week he's on a high then the next he is as miserable as sin.
He snaps quite often and doesn't have much patience with the kids but when he's in a good mood he's like a totally different person.
When he's home, he is constantly on the phone to friends, we barley have conversations.
Sometimes he can really loose it and I mean he flips. This has happened a bunch of times throughout the years.
He has never hit me but he will throw things in anger. I just keep quiet, I don't even argue back as I hate confrontation.
After he has his mad moments he apologise and says he can't control his temper most times.
A few occasions I've threatened to leave him and that's just really worked him up . Then he makes me feel guilty about it and I always end up forgiving him.
He says he loves me and the kids more than anything and everything he does it for for us.
Financially I'd be lost without him and wouldn't be able to afford half the things I can now. I only work part time and would struggle on my own. I know I'd eventually id get by and be able to do more hours once my youngest starts school.
Anyway he had one of his moments 4 days ago, he flipped at me infronf of our daughter and made her cry as she was scared with him shouting. I told him that I'm done with this relationship which he didn't like.
He ended up packing a bag and went to stay In his mates, where he still is now. He's messaged me since to say he's sorry and that me and the kids our his world. I've basically told him how I've been feeling about being mirsrable in our relationship and he said if that's what you want, then there's nothing I can do.
We've barley spoke, apart from when he's rang to speak to the kids.
My family and friends think I'm doing the right thing as I've been unhappy for a while.
However now I'm sat here feeling weak and how life won't ever be the Same.
Both my children have been saying they miss their daddy which really gets me.
He hasn't been able to see them for few days with work and obviously because he's been staying out.
I feel down about it all, but mainly for the children and maybe because I do love him deep down. I just don't know what to do anymore. Would I be stupid to take him back or should I just be free from him for good even though I'm sure i still have feelings for him and currently missing him being around.
I just feel sadness, when I should be feeling relieved that I don't have to put up with all the crap from him anymore.
Any advice, thoughts would be much appreciated.
Thanks for reading.