I feel really upset and have been crying. I had the opportunity to apply for my temp job as a permanent role but did not apply as I had only just started there, one of the tasks on the job description I had done before elsewhere and found it boring and the 40 minute commute was tiring and costs a lot in petrol.
I applied for a job at a previous employer who I worked for years ago and accepted the job. It was quite local, the pay was nearly up to 2k more and the position was created as a result of me temping there earlier in the year which was the second time I had worked there.
I have cried as I have really enjoyed my temp employer, as in the 3 months I have been there I got on really well with all the staff and had laughs and lots of chats as though we have all known each other for years.
The downside is lots of staff leave and people feel burn out. Even my colleague who has been there for 14 years has secured a job elsewhere and said the place will never be the same again as they merged last year. I think if I had stayed and he had gone I would miss having him in the office. I like this place as you can listen to music.
I have anxiety about starting the new place as there was a burnout culture years ago and I don’t want to be pressure to rush and burn out. Most people still work from home so there are not many people to chat to and you cant listen to music.
I want to work but at the same time be able to at least speak to people and not just come in, no chat and go home. I just don’t know if I made the right decision.