I'm stupid and just dumb. I know hes a nasty person but I have no one else. Hes been off with me since yesterday even though I have every reason to be annoyed. I took Lo to the doctors and told OH I'd be back by 12 he said to call him and wake him up and we'd go do something. So I call him when I'm done and he said ok hes getting up (does night shifts got back 7.30). I got home, parked far struggling with LO. OH not up, I went upstairs and asked if hes getting ready he said no. By now I'm pissed off because hes said he would, and has been mentioned it for the past few days. It's also too late to make plans with anyone else. So as always he ruins the day before its even started. I said a few choice words and left.
When I got home in the evening, he was trying to be all cute by hiding behind the front door and scaring us. Like the argument in the morning didnt happen. I was still annoyed at him but still talking to him. He then goes in the the kitchen and starts giving me silent treatment. Anyway we both ended up arguing and hes been off with me since. I have tried numerous times to just go near him and hold his hand but he just shoves me away from him or just swears at me. I tried again just now and he just shoved and pushed me out the way again swearing and left to go to the gym. I feel sick that my life is like this.
I also started my period yesterday and realised that my hormones are always all over the place and I've been getting incredibly emotional the past few months just before I'm due on, its becoming mentally draining, I question every part of my life and just really feel so shit. All this pent up emotion is eating up inside me.
Please can you give a some comfort, I feel sick with dread