Ugh it is Saturday night and my break up isnt even recent (8 months ago) but feeling terrible tonight and this past week. It's like the grief has come back. I love this time of year but feel like I cant enjoy it at all as I'm finding the weekends so hard again recently. I think work distracts me all week , then I wake up on a Saturday and theres just this gap. Saturday night just feels lonely. I do all the normal stuff, I meet friends, I do hobbies etc etc but eventually, when you come in and shut that front door its lonely again.