Last year my husband and I went through a rough patch, my sex drive went through the floor and as a result he felt rejected and would get annoyed. He said his birthday was the worst he had ever had because we didn't have sex and I thought that was a really horrible thing to say but he claims he was just being honest.
Anyway he moved out for a bit but then we agreed to try again, my drive picked up and things settled down.
Last week I had an awful UTI, had to take several days off work and get antibiotics to shift it. After a few days I felt better so he starts asking when I'm going to be ready to try again. I put it off for a bit but gave in and made it clear that I was only doing it for him, he said we had to try again sooner or later. Afterwards I said I felt like a toy being there for his entertainment, I consented to it but even during it was obvious I was just trying to get him off.
Now I'm having a flare up of the UTI again and I'm pissed off with him but also myself. I'm pissed off at him for making me feel like I had to do it although he said I didn't. I'm pissed off with myself for not putting my foot down and saying no and he's pissed off with me for making him out to be horrible.
It's going to be a while now before I feel up for any kind of action and I've made that quite clear. He thinks I'm unreasonable because it's all in my head and we have to try at some point but I think less than a week from taking my last antibiotic was probably too soon so it's going to be at least 2 this time. I've barely left the bathroom in 3 hours and just feel like crying I'm so uncomfortable.