Does anyone suffer from this? I feel like I have a constant, background sadness. It's like it's on a repeat cycle. I've name changed by the way, long time poster on stately homes thread.
I started coming out of the fog almost 4 years ago. I am NC with my entire family and am in the process of leaving my emotionally abusive partner.
I do have friends, and lovely children who I know love and adore me.
But sometimes I just want a hug from a mum or a husband. When I've had a bad day I just want someone to pick me up and tell me it's all ok.
But if you're the scapegoat in a narcissistic family or an empath in an abusive relationship no one does that. I've never had it, so I don't even know what I'm missing.
What do others do when the aching pain of not having a loving family or partner gets too much?
I am a big believer in just keep going, I work hard on myself. I've had more therapy than you can shake a stick at. I run. I try to be kind to myself. I fill my life with healthy hobbies and avoid toxic people as much as I can. I try to remain positive and practice an attitude of gratitude for what I have.
But I need a fucking hug. It's been years since I've had any sort of affection from anyone other than my children. I cried in a yoga class recently as we had to pair up and a complete stranger had to touch me in a supportive way and it was just so foreign to me.
What else can I do?