Hi lovely people would like some advice. I am not feeling great today ill and just emotionally ill also.
Me and dcs have been bunged up, got no help for husband as usual and feel fed up of feeling like a big mess.
Me and husband have been having issues which he makes out to be dramatic or that im the issue. Ive left home few months ago due to the issues as i dont think there anything small i didnt want to return, i stayed with family, until he got through to after 2 weeks and said he understands and would make changes.
Ive not seen change im just here because im still holding onto HOPE. His not caring, i dont feel like we vibe, hes to into his work and forgets he got a family. All i hear is things will get better be patient.
I know im not happy i also told him this and he literally fell asleep whilst i was telling him how i feel. I also suffer from anxiety and recently i been having minor panics due to the stress i feel.
Also being ill his not offered any help just left the house without a word, not even a 'are u and kids feeling better'
I told him his not pulling his weight he told me ah fuck off, so i said il leave as you never cared. Fast forward after the conversation told me GO, I dont care this time around, il go fuck other bitches.
He does say very harsh things and then expects me to stay sane.
I have told housing but they are not helping me move. We rents and i cant afford it alone. Im very scared about the future with 3 kids, how will i cope financially if im still on maternity my little is only 9 months.
Do single mothers cope, is it hard, can i do this. Will kids hate me for moving out. Will anyone in future except us. I just want to cry my heart out i feel so stuck.. I just wanted a happy home. My family are mix minded about the situation some say leave some are saying your kids need there dad.