I took the MAP and was due my period yesterday. I’m aware it can make it later. I’ve realised I’m half hoping it has failed 
We have two gorgeous kids and I’d love a third- DH is not at all keen. He’s said he’ll get a vasectomy when he’s absolutely certain but won’t be ready to make a final decision until our youngest (10 months) is out of the baby stage. He knows he’d need to decide 100% within the next 12 months as I’ll be 38 so might not be super possible anyway.
We had sex I think the day after I ovulated but I’m not keeping track as not trying to get pregnant. I just got my dates completely mixed up and thought it was a week later.
Sensible me does not want a baby this close to the last one and without DH on board. Broody me is dreading my period though. My friend has just announced she’s expecting her 3rd so I think it’s closely linked to that too.
How do you cope with this feeling and wtf will i do if it hasn’t worked because I don’t really want this and I also wouldn’t actually want to end it either.