Just that really. I am lonely and would love to meet someone, but I would be happy if I never had to have sex again. For years I've tried to like it, different men, doing all kinds of things but being honest with myself now, I really dislike it. I also have some internal issues which can make it very painful, despite having treatment etc. I really have tried and I have loved my previous partners and wanted to enjoy the physical side so much. Now I am single, not having penetrative sex is something I have not missed for a second. I love kissing,cuddling, giving pleasure in other ways but I can't imagine anybody accepting me as I am. I hate the thought of being alone forever though.