One for Christians to I guess, in addition to non Christians.
Only just discovered the stately homes thread. I've got a lifetime of rewiring to do.
I can't take my mother any more. God I need her but she's never been emotionally available and is becoming worse each time we meet. Just had my first child and it's so hard, but I'm realising just how strong I am. If I can parent a baby I should be able to parent my inner child to, that's what's keeping me afloat at the moment.
Anyway, I'm also Christian and not a good one but it helps me try to better myself at least and try to be the best I can be even though I fail regularly. A big part of being Christian is forgiveness.
So my question is, have I forgiven her (mother) if I don't hold my hurt against her, give her a fresh slate each time we meet yet I still feel the pain of the emotional abuse she has subjected me to? I plan on committing to reducing contact but not going NC. It should be easyish ASAP we live hours apart.