Posted here recently about being pretty low and had to step away to gather my thoughts. Been given medication to help with my mood and so on.
My ex and I had planned a break which we can still going on. He thinks it’s a terrible idea as it’s too painful because he still loves me (he ended it due to personality / lifestyle differences) and things ended recently. I want to go as I miss him but know it’s over so I am just happy to spend time in his company even though I know it’s probably not the best idea. We get on brilliantly and enjoy spending time together.
What should I do. There is no animosity at all on either side just sadness so I am hoping this will give me closure. I have no hope of reconciliation as he has made it very clear that’s not what he wants. I have accepted that.
I can’t do no contact just yet as I still deep down hope things could work but at the same time have completely accepted that he feels differently so I will take this as an opportunity to say goodbye once and for all.
Am I being very silly to even think that this is a good idea. It’s only for two nights and not too far so if it goes horribly wrong it’s easy to end the trip I suppose so there is that as an escape! He has said I can decide what I want to do and he will go along with it.