I know many of you will probably complain when I say I live at home. I live with my mother and my brother. It's just a scenario a that has happened. I work hard but I can't afford my own place. Even shared accommodation is hard to find. Rental properties are few and the costs are scandalous. For a long time I was thinking of the positives of living at home.
A few years ago my brother went out with his friends and he came home in a state. He had several episodes of tripping out of his head followed by week long hangovers. Over the course of about 18 months his personality changed so much. He was withdrawn and moody. Basically to me, signs pointed to drug use. My mom was very slow to come around and realise that he's using drugs. Eventually he lost his job and his girlfriend. He's been in that rut since then. He's unemployed and he didn't make any effort to look for work. The pandemic for 18 months didn't help and closures. He wasn't really working in the industries that closed though.
It's been ages since we probably sat down and talked. Even on in a casual way without touching on anything too heavy like unemployment, drink and drugs. It seems as if the only time he talks to me is whenever he is drunk and I refuse to be around him when he's like that. He spends a lot of time in his room like a hermit. There's been so many days or evenings when I come home from work and he's in his room. I don't know what the situation is during the day when I am gone. If he gets up and makes some effort with our mother. Then when I go to bed at night time and close my bedroom door for the night. Within 10 minutes I hear him get up. Completely avoiding me. It's happen so many times for it to be innocent at this stage. Where he's in his room all night and then he gets up when I am gone to bed for the night. It seems as if the only time he perks up is when he's getting ready to go out and see his friends (possibly in anticipation for a hit or a supply of drugs). He was out Saturday night. He came home in the middle of the night and stayed up all night. That is regular behaviour.
I don't know if he's coming down from drugs or if he is taking drugs in his room or if it's something else. It hit me last night though. He doesn't talk to me from one end of the week to the next. I can't think of any row that we had for him to do that.
I read up about drugs and I read some drugs alters moods and temperament and changes you and effects hormones. So I don't know if there is depression at hand too. If there's any depression he's able to hide it for his friends.
I'm so deflated with this. We used to get on well, now he's a hermit with an alcohol and drug addict being supported fully my mom. She's completely blind. She doesn't want to see how band he is. We ahad a death in the family recently and it looked like he was trying to be clean. He stayed away from his mates for about 6 weeks. His mood picked up too. I saw something though and I don't know if its connected to drugs. I saw hand tremors in him. He needs medical help in my opinion but he neglected going to his GP and my mom is too blind. She's completely in fear of the worst case scenario of suicide in him.
All of this is hitting me hard now.