I say new, it’s been a few months and it’s got quite serious quite quickly, which I’m not opposed to. He is absolutely lovely, no red flags, all is going well. It’s my first real relationship in 12 years, since I left my controlling and abusive relationship.
Last night, for the first time in those 12 years, I dreamt about my ex-P. We were at a party, then we were in a hotel room and he wouldn’t let go of me and I was struggling to breathe. I woke up struggling to breathe and heart pounding. It took a while to calm down and I’m still having to take deep breaths now and then now.
I’m really worried that this is my subconscious warning me about something in my new relationship. I’m being silly, aren’t I? It’s just a dream and the timing is coincidental.