Good morning all. I have literally just signed up for help with my issue.
So I was married at 17 and when pregnant found out he was cheating and 9 months pregnant found out he and his brother ha d raped 2 girls. Subsequently he was put in jail and is still. In jail to this date. I divorced him and when my baby was 2 I entered another marriage, he was great with my son brought him up as his own ect we've been married 10 years now, but things just ain't the same. This one has also cheated and put me through hell. When it all came out he begged and begged me to stay how sorry he was ect so I stayed as we have 2 girls together also. But since things have never been the same. He even named our daughter the name of his love as I found out as he was talking with her and he blurted out once he loved her always will ect amd he named our daughter after her. This was all 4 years back he even thinks things aren't the same any more we abarely talk barely have sex but that's down to me as I've got fibromyalgia and painful bladder syndrome started within past 2 years so I'm in pain daily. I have tried to forget about past but it's hard I've forgiven him but I can't forget. It's almost like roommates.
Anyhow yesterday I was dropping kids off at school gone shopping and as I was driving out the car park I saw a guy whom I thought I knew. He smiled and I thought it couldn't be anyways I've drove and he's pulled up besides me asking if I was who I am I said yes so he asked me to pull over at which point I knew who he was for sure. So I've pulled over and he has just smiles form ear to ear couldn't stop laughing and smiling saying how much he had missed me it had been 15 years he I must add was the man who took my virginity the one who asked me to be patient with him and he would marry me but I didn't stay I moved area. He never did me wrong though I must add but he hugged me and kept kisiing me on the cheek begging for my number which I'm not a cheater or anything so I kept saying I can't. I also told him I can't get another divorce as I've been married 2 times now no one wants a wife or lady who's been married 2 times especially with kids involved I'd be a spinster to old age. So it's more convenient for me to stay. He said obviously what I remember he promised me marriage if I waited but I disappeared. He looked really good and since that moment I've not stopped thinking of him it brought up old emotions and feelings. He was literally begging me. On the street for my number he wants to see me he said he don't want to see me for sex he said he saw me a few years ago walking but by the time he turned car around I was gone and I used to live were he said so it's true. Truth be told I've missed him and it was obvious he has too. I told him to give me his number which he did but I haven't text or called I can't bring myself to do it as that's cheating right? I can't do that even if we aren't on good terms. What do I do in this situation. He asked where I live and I gave him the area name which is quite a small area and I slipped up actually as I realise he knows my car which is quite distinctive and it's a sports car with rare bits and pieces every car that drives past I'm looking out as I know he wouldn't let me go easily again and he would just knock on or pretend to get the wrong house just to see my face what would you do in this situation. So sorry for the long post thanks