Still struggling

[ChiChi16]

Looking for some help moving on from DH. He moved out about 3 months ago after having and emotional affair with a work colleague who lives abroad (they have never met and she is 25 and he is 54).
I've been married for 23 years and we've been together a total of 30 years. I hate the way he has treated me during the start of this mess - i originally found out in Dec after reading an email he sent her - he's lied about talking to her on an off the past 9 months and since being asked to leave again for the third time, he has stopped calling or texting me. I have been no contact with him now for 12 days, each day i find it difficult to not call or text him.
I miss him so much but he feels nothing for me anymore. Some days i am strong and think i will get over this but some days, like today, i keep crying and want him back.
How do i move on? I work from home so not really doing anything new, I suffer with anxiety which prevents me from going out outside my comfort zone. I wish i had a distraction to help me move on from this, someone to talk to, someone who shows a little interest in me.
I'm 53. I can't see my life ever getting any better. Can anyone share some words of wisdom?

You find a female friend who is free, you go to the pub this sunny evening, you buy a bottle of cool white wine between you and you slag off the fucking sleeze 30 years his junior FFS.

You begin to thank your lucky stars that you found out your soon to be fully ex-H sleezebag was messaging a "young enough to be his grown up daughter" sleeze. She only wants his cash and passport options he is in cloud cuckoo land.

Then you get another bottle of wine and share that.

And you tell people what a sleeze he is.

And don't give yourself a hard time you didn't give up on your marriage for a fucking pipedream. Who the hell does he think he is? Mick Jagger!

And then you live the rest of your life being fabulous.

Everything frozendaisy said! LOL!

You need to find something else to focus on and out your energy into, preferably something that will bring you into contact with other people.

It could be an exercise challenge that you sign up for, a fundraising event, a new hobby that you do purely for your own enjoyment (drawing, knitting, coding course, tree planting, etc). It doesn't have to be big, but it should be something ongoing that requires a small commitment, because it is that commitment that is going to get you moving/talking/out of the house. And slowly but surely you will spend less time thinking about your ex.

Oh and change his name to "twatface" in your contacts - that helps too.

Thank you for your replies, I will drink a few glasses of wine this evening with a close friend and I'll look into taking up a hobby...I've always been into star gazing and I remember one evening (during the first lockdown) around midnight, I was in the back garden looking up at the clear sky trying to catch the ISS passing over, my DD came down and said she thought 'Twatface' was in our room whispering to someone, I went upstairs and walked into the bedroom, and could see that while he was lying in bed he left the phone slip from his ear..I asked him if he was on the phone and he said no, I asked him to come down and look up at the stars with me but he laughed and said no. I'm convinced he was on the phone because he thought i'd be in the back garden for at least an hour.....It put me off stargazing because i thought he used this time to talk to other women....Not sure if it was someone random of a regular.
I feel more positive today, I can do this, he has lost a loyal wife and a beautiful daughter. He's been in my life since I was 15, I thought he was an honest, faithful, family man...not the thing he has actually shown himself to be...I just need my heart to catch up with my head. x