I think I'm finally done but we have a baby (that he wanted) and I can't think of a way to work and pay for nursery until he is a bit older. I feel so trapped. I have worked all my life to make sure I was never in this position but here we are.
He is one of the nastiest people I have ever met and I'm wasting my life on him.
Today I mentioned not wanting sex because I feel disgusting after having a baby and he said it's such a shame that he (baby) is growing up thinking he is loved when I'm just pretending. I don't know why it struck a nerve but I've been to hell and back with this baby on my own through lockdown and he appreciates nothing I have done.
He pestered me for sex two weeks after having the baby and I've never healed properly.
He goes on about canceling his direct debits and taking the baby from me.
He is also from over seas and threatens to take him there. I would stand no chance of ever finding him.
My decision is made. I just don't know how to get out. Do I hang on until I can financially manage myself?