Hi all
I'm very down and confused at the moment. Please bear with the info coming up and I will try to make it short.
I'm in my mid 50s and living with my dp and 18 yo dc. I work full term time only. I have been divorced twice, first husband was serial cheater and second was abusive. My current partner and I had some problems to begin with but better now. However, he won't go out with me anywhere. We go on separate holidays and he goes to visit his dc abroad. I feel like I'm last on everyone's list of importance. No treat/surprise for my 50th, no being taken out ever. I hear and see women being treated and valued and I feel like I'm unimportant. His dc recently got married and I wasn't even invited and dp just said I would have moaned about the journey and the heat so nobody asked me.
Now I look at my life and think there is something wrong with me to make this happen. I don't know what to do anymore. I also have no sex drive at all which I know isn't great but I feel the only thing dp wants me for is sex.
I know I'm not perfect and I've been offish and pushing him away.
Just wondering if anyone else feels like this?