I really need help. I am so confused. I am sorry this will be a little long. So the story is I was with my ex boyfriend during 4 years. It was a beautiful realtionship, we loved and trusted each other. I saw myself some years in the future married to him. He went to study to another country and we kept the relationship for 1 1/2 years in distance relationship. During this period I started to feel that we were no more in the same page, although I deeply loved him. I was getting drained because I felt he was expecting me to do something about him being in a bad mood so frequently and I couldn't. Everything I tried didn't worked and ended up making me feeling down. When he was finnaly able to come back for a few months and we talked about it. I told him everything I was feeling. I told him I was thinking the best we could do was to break-up since I got a scholarship to study a master degree for 3 years in another country and I exposed him my point of view. He also told me his point of view but said he agreed. We said that we wanted to keep being friends and if we were still loving each other after some time we could just be back again together. So we broke up the moment I enter the airport. This was almost 7 months ago. The first two months we kept talking, not as frequently but in the same loving way. Then, not even three months after our break up he told me he was dating another girl, he did that on my birthday. And I broke down. I asked him for time without talking. I asked him not to talk to me until I could handle my emotions. After one month he wrote to me if I could talk to him again, I said no. Then, another month goes by and I write to him that I now can talk to him. Now he is so distant. At first he told me a lot of things he wanted to said, then he just stopped talking. Then he suddenly asked to make a videocall and I can't forget the way he looked at me, it was exactly the same way he used to look at me when we were dating. That day we talked again as if we were still boyfriend/girlfriend. But after that coldness came back. He asked me what I think of him, and what I feel about him. So I told him that I still have a lot of feelings for him. His answer? Okay, thank you for telling me. So I asked him back, and he said "Me too. Affection, tenderness, admiration, wishes that you are happy and that life goes well for you."
So now I don't know what I should do. My brain says that his actions means he is over me and he feels nothing, but I can't forget his face on the videocall and somwhere deep in my heart I feel he also loves me... And I feel he is the one. I was facing this separation as a moment for both of us to grow and find what we want to do with our lifes in order for us to come back together stronger, but now it seems he already fogot about me and I am scared he did, I am scared he won't come back and I am scared I might not be able to get over him.