Quick childhood background - narc mother, emotional abuse as a child, sympathetic father who made the right noises about how awful it is for me and how he is also being abused but in hindsight he made himself look like the bigger victim so that I felt bad for him, never protected me.
I am NC with my mother. I had a weak moment when DS was born and accepted a visit from her together with my father. Huge mistake, and I told her last week I will never do that again.
My dad now refuses to come to visit me unless my mother can come too, because apparently that would be a sin (they are Christians). He would rather not see me and his grandchildren than visit without her. I've told him in that case he's the one choosing to no longer have any contact with me and I no longer want to hear from him again.
I feel like a little girl again. I know my mother hates me, but the pain of being rejected by the parent who I loved so much is just too much 