Needy

[needynelly56]

I don't even know why I am writing this but I feel so confused. I don't know if I have a problem or he is causing it, or I am that stressed I am overthinking.

I broke up with my boyfriend basically by him ghosting me, into thinking something was trivial was a massive deal and wouldn't speak to me. I only wanted some delivery details off him mam for his daughters 21st.

He got back in touch last week. Said he wants to start seeing each other again. Now my mam is poorly we are waiting for some scan results has she has gone dramatically down hill.

Stayed over. Got a nice bday present even had a nice night. But the texting and contact is not the same. I mean last night he said he fell asleep but he opened it and never replied.

I just don't know where my head is. I don't know if he is using me. Or I am asking too much. I am off work at the moment so probably thinking a lot more than usual.

How can I stop feeling so bloody pathetic? Cos I know I am. My friend described him as emotionally unavailable.

I was even going to ask the doctor to see if I needed anything to help me at the moment.

Thanks for listening anyway! Just needed to vent.

If you feel worse being with him than without him, then that's a huge sign. If you need to see a doctor now because of him, that's another huge sign.

Perhaps break up now and spend some time without him? I reckon you'll realise he isn't worth it.

Hey thanks for that! I'm not sure if it's the stress of him or my mam?

I feel awful.

I am not a bad looking woman, and I know that.

My poor mam wouldn't even answer the door to anyone before it's heartbreaking.

He sounds like a knob who wants everything in his terms. Tell him to sling his hook op. You dont need some yoyo in your life. Let alone one who breaks up with you as a form of controlling your behaviour by punishing you randomly.

You've enough giubv8on in your life right now and your mental health will improve considerably without the little twerp in your space. Tell him you dont want him back. Then block him. See your gp for a chat, he might suggest a mild anti depressant to help you get through things. But your main problem by the sounds of it, is a twatty bloke that needs a good dumping.

I'm not even remotely sure what 'giubv8on' was meant to be lol. Hardship? Trouble? Problems? Lol

Hahaha I know and I was blaming myself for being needy.

I actually thought he has realised he was a nob as he said sorry to me.

We had a nice night for my birthday too, so that was nice. I just haven't a clue what is going on. I mean he text this morning saying he had fell asleep. Oh god knows it's probably me.