I used to be a confident, happy, witty, kind person. I’m destroying myself and my relationship in the process by self sabotage. I can’t seem to stop. I keep asking my partner if he cares, if he’s bothered etc etc. I know this is exactly the way to push someone away and I love him so much I don’t want to do that. Yet im doing it. I want text him all the time, have phone calls etc. I don’t give him any room to miss me as I’m scared if I back off I wouldn’t hear as much from him as i would like. He’s not given me any reason to think he doesn’t care. But I’m ruining things I can tell. I’m a mess I wish I wasn’t here.