Hi
I am struggling.
Before this relationship I was a happy reasonably naive adult.
I have had a four year relationship with a text book narcissist and I am really struggling.
I have posted before and he was a piece of work and to top it off he was sexting behind my back, videos the lot.
This was almost a year ago I found this and the relationship ended six months ago but it feels like it’s all hitting me now.
It makes me feel ill thinking that he did all those things. The videos , the emotional abuse
Even when i told him how bad i felt he kept going.
Also my mind seems to be flooded with the few nice memories of the relationship.
Any advice would be appreciated.
I have two children not with him and I feel bad that they don’t have the real version of me. I hate that he has made me mistrust and doubt everyone and everything.