Broke up with someone only about a month ago after a nine month relationship. It wasn’t a nice breakup. Usually I’m over things quite quickly but I think this one has hurt me.
Went out on a date last night, got drunk, had sex. It was fun at the time and he was a sweet guy but I now have that weird dirty feeling full of dread. I had planned just to have one or two and got carried away. Feel stupid.
Also embarrassed I spoke about ex a bit too candidly when he asked, feel like it was obvious I was still a bit bitter. Ugh. How unattractive.
Feel shit now and weak for even going on a date when breakup is so fresh. Also guilty I’ve potentially led this guy on, although I’m not sure what his intentions are anyway. He’s texted to say he had fun but no mention of seeing eachother again yet. Which is sort of a relief as I know I’m not in the right place.
Don’t even know what I’m asking here, just wanted to share as feeling really shit and vulnerable and stupid.