Even the edited version of this will be long so apologies in advance.
I had a "best friend". She meant the world to me although we never really did the "soppy" thing, in my eyes she was the sister I never had, I never told her that of course, we were more the sort of friends that would just mercilessly rip it out of each other. She just "got" me, noone else has ever really come close.
I found myself in an abusive relationship and after 4 years of it I guess she had enough. He made it impossible for me to talk to her, listening in on our conversations, looking through my phone, making noise in the background if I called her. I tried to call her on the odd occasion he wasn't with me but she worked shifts and couldn't always answer. He had caused her so much grief, he already had her number as we were all mutual friends (I met him through her). He would phone her and drag her into our arguments as he did with my poorly mum. I begged him not to but he never listened. She cut me out of her life after an incident when i'd been seen with him after we had split up. Looking back now I can see he had manipulated me yet again, but at the time he'd turned up at my house distraught after some bad news (which was true for once, but he still used it to his advantage). I tried to explain to her but she wouldn't take my calls, I had a very old phone that froze if I tried to send long messages, I must have written over ten letters that I never sent for fear of rejection.
Add to this another mutual acquaintance of ours (who has form for gossiping and shit stirring) told her i'd been badmouthing her when I hadn't. She didn't believe me, I guess by then she thought I had changed and couldn't trust me anymore.
We did briefly speak again for a few months after no contact for years until something fairly minor came up and she cut me off again, I felt she'd overreacted but if the trust was already gone maybe I can understand it. I left it though, it just hurt too much.
Nothing more until about a month ago when she requested me on fb. Here's where i'm confused. I messaged her and thanked her for the add, said it was a nice surprise. She read it and didn't reply. I thought "ok, she doesn't want to make it a big deal". I suppose I just expected a few likes here and there on posts and maybe we'd get chatting again. Nope, nothing, since then, she hasn't contacted me, commented on, liked a single post. She isn't one for drama so I dont want to push it but i'm wondering does she even want to be friends, or has the shit stirring started up again and she's only added me to see if i'm writing bitchy comments (which I never have and never would). I honestly dont know what she wants but if there's a chance we could repair our friendship I dont want to bugger it up by being too full on. Any advice welcome.