Just a Handhold (or even a smile)

[Perriwinkles]

I’m feeling low tonight. I’m separated & childless & I had a horrible fight with my closest family member recently. They were triggered & took it out on me but I got pulled into over-explaining as I always do.

Just feeling so sad & alone. Anyone out there?

Thanks @picklemewalnuts (great username by the way!) thanks for the flowers and coffee. I had some chocolate with the coffee!

Indeed you’re right. We can only look after ourselves. I’m separated and initially missed so many things I felt I could only do with my husband (e.g.) simple things like eating out or staying in a hotel. So, I went on a hotel break alone once we were permitted and I ate out alone recently (it took a while to psyche myself up to it as I’m a woman and I see so many more men than women eating out alone). It wasn’t the same and I look forward to doing it with a partner in the future but it felt so good to drum up the courage to do it alone.

The situation I’m in is with an immediate family member and I think/hope time will heal. A treat for the two of us is a lovely idea — thank you. I’ve decided to forgive. I’ve seen too many families (including my own) torn apart with long-held anger and resentment so I don’t want to lose this special person. If that means getting past some hurtful words and actions, so be it.