I feel so torn. I don’t know how to write this down. I am so in love with my partner who I have 2 under 2 with. But I cry every day. He has been on dating sites since the start off. Messaging other girls and picture messages at the beginning and saying it was because he didn’t love me then. Recently he met with another girl who is 19 (he is 24, me 23) for a run. He lied to me about what happened. I was told he was asked by a guy and was told she would come and he felt bad saying no. I was told it was after work. But I found out it was his day off (when he was meant to come to me- we didn’t live together at the time) with the children and that he approached her asking what pace she runs at, then saying he is the same. So to me I told him it was a date: am I overreacting? It wasn’t even him I got this information from. But the girl. He told me not to ask her or he’ll have to leave his job and go back to his family and not be here with me. He ended up telling me he asked 8 other people before him. I don’t know what to believe. I know I shouldn’t but I couldn’t help myself- his history on YouTube isn’t great. Watching videos of girls ‘sexy’ videos. Maybe I’m overreacting. He told me under a week ago that he’s never been in love with me. That he’ll never leave me because he loves me. But has wondered about 10 times in our relationship what it will feel like to really love someone. I’m his first actual girlfriend. That he didn’t love me until our first child was born. We don’t have any money either and there’s nothing to do round where we live without a car, which we don’t have. We don’t get any help with the children so can’t have alone time. We argue. We don’t talk. I don’t want to be told to end things. I need help. Because, I am ashamed to say this, I don’t think I can. I did tell him a few days ago to go to his family for a week (they’ll be more than happy) so we could get our heads clear. But he told me he wouldn’t and I would see him on the streets instead. We disagree with the kids more than 50% of the time. He’s in bed. We just rowed. I’m so lost. Especially when what I used to look back on at the beginning wasn’t even true. That he never loved me and tried with everyone but it only worked with me. Please can I have some advice. Anyone been through anything similar. Also- as I have no help with the children I fear I can’t handle them both alone especially with nothing except a tiny park around here via walking