I don’t really know what I am hoping for here. Hopefully someone to tell me that this pain will get easier or less. I have lost count of the times iv tried to break free of this relationship. 10 years. 2 dc. You name it it has been done cheating, lying, stealing, substance and alcohol abuse, putting those things before important family occasions, violence, smashing up the house. The list goes on. He’s been arrested again for shouting and going crazy at my house. I know I need to break free of him I have no idea why I feel like I don’t deserve better than this for a life. I even feel sick with guilt for him being now kept away from his children again. I know it isn’t normal and that he doesn’t deserve my pity or guilt. Please tell it will get better. Right now I feel like a failure of a partner, mother, everything. Feel like I am not enough for my children on my own and don’t know where to turn.