This is a difficult one. From the outside it probably seems like we have an ok relationship, but things have never been good. A pattern of abuse started at the beginning (10yrs) that has been there ever since, only I've covered it up. I put extra effort in with the kids and made things seem normal. I don't know why. I think I felt it was my only option.
After several recent incidents I know I need to leave. I have said we need to break up to my H. He refused to really accept it, refused to leave when I asked, but moreover he has sought to sweep it under the carpet, and has by ignoring what I said managed to make things operate nearly as normal. I would need him to leave the house while I work things out for a while. To be clear he has shouted at me irrationally a lot about this, not been calm, but now is pretending it's life as normal. He is manipulative and deceitful, and very abusive.
I feel inside my heart like I left, I feel like my final line was crossed and I said my piece, but he is here acting as if things are normal. I have nowhere to go, no family. I am reluctant to just leave to nowhere with the kids.
Does anyone have experience of this? I thought that if you told someone it was over they might take it seriously.