I have exams in 3 weeks. For the past year I have been preparing however I have also given birth and been at home with my now 1 year old. Ive asked my husband to ask his mum to watch our son so I can study and he said no his mum wouldn't be able to do it as she is older and our son will be too much for her . So I have basically had to deal with little sleep balancing our son , house choirs and studies . About 2 months ago I started looking for childminders, but luckily found a nursery which had spaces available. I spoke to the teacher and I really liked it . I was planning on going for an opening day and registering my son there for 2-3 days a week. My husband was against it due to covid and he doesn't want strangers watching his baby and told me his mum and sister agreed to watch him twice a week . I was happy about it and left the nursery option . Fast forward 2 months later his sister has only watched him for one full day and another day for 3 hours which she brought him back early . She's had excuses weekly . His mum has watched him once a week but I get the vibe that she has complained . Anyways I feel like I'm either going to fail or die. I went bed at 4 am last night due to my studies and was up at 7am with my son. I can't deal with the sleep deprivation , time is getting nearer and I'm getting stressed out because I don't have enough time. I have been speaking to a childminder who I spoke to 2 months ago but had to let down at the time . I want to take My son there but my husband might have alot to say . I don't know how to handle it