I was with my children's dad for 8 years but we just grew apart.
I eventually started dating a 15 year older man. Really trusted him and have him my 100%. He turned out to be fake and full of lies. Hurt emotionally alot of people including exes, past lovers, family and children. He was that messed up I couldn't even explain what was wrong with him. Just as he was telling me he loved me he started to change. Lie. I discovered alot of hidden truths.
It's been 6 weeks since I cut him out my life. I am over him although I do still go over parts of it. A couple of weeks ago I told myself I was open to new people. As friends and lovers. I just wanted to feel positive about new people and learning about them.
I'm nothing special. I get abit of Interest through Facebook though now as I'm single. 99% of men who send me a little private message I don't answer. Because I don't find them attractive or I remember them from hanging around with my sister in the bus stop back in 2003 and now they are ageing badly and I knowing they snogged my sister is a no (only two of them were this era)
But last night after 6 people have contacted me since last month a nice looking local man messaged me. But I just didn't trust it instantly. He's got 950 friends and he asked me in the 3rd message if I wanted to Snapchat him and he would me. I don't use Snapchat. He's 8 months younger than me and asked if that bothered me too. I kinda sensed he was trying to move me straight onto photos of rude parts. He suggested I sent him a cheeky smile on Facebook instead and I jokingly sent him an emoji and said that will have to do I'm in bed (10.45pm)
He said talk again soon and i said ok that would be nice. Nothing yet. I just don't know. I'm 33 and I have two kids. I don't play on Snapchat anymore and I don't like all this pressure to send pictures and prove you are sexy. It instantly makes me think I'll never be enough in real life if they want all the action online.
It's so hard to click with people now. It always feels like I attract chancers that are messaging loads of pretty filtered faces, even at my age. It's like living in a teenage world and I hate it.
Should I just give up and hope I meet someone out and about? Online just feels naff. But then again my clubbing days are over!