Every time my exh is displeased with something I do. (Which is most weeks). I mean a normal choice like taking the internet or phone away from my dc as a consequence. Or emailing the school about a problem one of the dc have. Or a bigger one like going away with kids for a night. I end up feeling like an emotional wreck and blaming myself for doing the wrong thing when the rational part of me knows that I did the right or ok thing.
I feel like I am on a fast hamster wheel and cant get off it.
My kids try and treat me as he does.
They all call me a coward for getting divorced and tell me I should have stayed married because I ruined the family.
The kids and exh constantly put me down and insult me. Doing NVR with kids and have outside support with this issue re the dc.
The kids tell me they hate me but they would prefer to live with me than their dad. They tell me they use me to get what they want from me.
My ex expects me to run every little decision past him and when I dont all hell breaks loose.
In some ways I feel more restricted than when I was married.
I try and stick to my boundaries I have made but with emotional attacks on every side I just feel so pressured to give in. Or I feel like I am making bad choices and not being considerate or I am selfish or I am really unworthy.