I split up with my boyfriend of 8 years. We have an almost 3 year old son together.
He has been so awful to me. I’ve posted about it before. He’s been so horrible at times. Lazy, unappreciative, selfish, unsupportive, unapologetic, rude etc.
I have tried so hard for over a year to make this relationship work for our family but I can’t take it anymore.
I have been talking to a friend who has been amazing so supportive and genuine. Problem is he is a friend of my ex boyfriend and works with him.
He has been there for me for so long and I am really attracted to him not because of his looks but because of the person he is and how he speaks to me.
I feel so torn. I can’t take being treated like a maid anymore but he’s the father of my child. I’m not young. We have different needs and wants. I want to get married he doesn’t. I think I want another child he doesn’t.
I don’t want to sound like an awful person but what the hell do I do! I want to be happy. On my own and in a relationship. I’m neither with me ex but now he’s trying so hard. I miss him in a weird way. He’s all I’ve known for 8 years. He just doesn’t appreciate me or help me. I haven’t had a lie in since our son was born. I’ve literally done it all. I feel like that’s my fault though. I did everything because I was scared he was going to leave me and I was depressed and tried and scared with a new baby.
Am I being a massive twat thinking I could be happy with someone else? Someone who is a friend of ours? I feel so alone. I don’t want to burden people with my thoughts.
It’s such a mess. I just want my son to be happy (he’s very happy all the time both of us are part of that) he’s the most important person in my life!! I don’t ever want to see him upset. Note my ex isn’t a bad father! He is amazing once he has got out of bed!
How do you do this? How does it work? What happens next? Help!