Everything here has been kicking off after the last few days. Its like I can't do anything right and I'm starting to feel trapped, constantly watching what I'm doing and saying. My kid is with us full time and we have his kids EOW, we both work full time.
It started earlier on in the week, I asked if he had heard anything from his ex, kids mum, just to generally see how his kids are, what they've been upto and all that jazz. He got super pissed off that I'd asked and it turned into a rant about.. you can't trust me if you keep asking, if there's anything to report I'd tell you blah blah. So, I've not asked all week and now he thinks I don't give a sh!t about his kids. So there's tiff number 1.
Friday night, kids are here for the weekend.. YAAAAAY! Family time. Music in the background, kids playing nicely. It comes to settling everyone down for bed, my kid tidied their mess up they made with tea and went upto bed. 1 down 2 to go.
We tidy before we get cleaned up for the night, he takes one room I did the other. Both equally as untidy. He goes for his shower, I try and settle the kids but his oldest wants their dad and doesn't listen to me one iota when it comes to bedtime. So he comes down all p!ssed off that they aren't settled. I say, I tried this and that but they had none of it, you know what they're like when they want you. So off he stomps, then comes back into me.. theres no bread or effing milk. 9pm my shoes go on and I go to the shop.
Come back, ran a bath and got in it. He comes upstairs.. im shattered, you don't do anything to help me. You sat on your phone for 10 minutes. You left me to tidy the worse room. Why didn't you buy this and this when you went to the shop earlier.
But then because I say things in return such as, we tidied a room each and I went to the shop to get what we needed. It p!sses him off even more like he wants me to agree that I'm useless or whatever.
These bashings about how I dont do enough happen almost every night. We share housework equally but if I dare forget to do one thing it turns into a rant.
I'm not the kind of person who will list everything I've done like I've done all this, what have you done. It is what it is, if he doesn't do something, I'll do it. I won't have a pop about it. He always picks up on the things I haven't done rather than looking at all the things I did do. It's wearing me out a little bit. I'll get to stage where I just switch off and I'll end up leaving. As much as I love him.