To start off with, I’m lost. Completely lost and I just don’t know what to do.
We’ve got a DD (8weeks) and another who is 3.5 years old. After our first we had the usual stress and tough time we all have but got through it, and we have the same again - in terms of strained relationship but it’s more than that, in my heart of hearts I know our marriage is over. We’ve been together 17 years and married for 5 and it’s over.
Our relationship hasn’t been good for a long time, perhaps even before our first daughter was born but we muddled through and decided to have another baby. However, I can’t live in this marriage anymore, it’s miserable, all we do is argue (and it’s all we did before our new baby), we aren’t able to communicate properly and any element of spark has completely gone. The trouble is that after so long together our whole lives are intertwined, all the same friends, family are all connected now and I just can’t see the other side. I realise that we can’t carry on as we are, our bitterness and argument is rubbing off on our eldest and it’s compete unfair for our new baby too.
How on Earth do we get through this? I’m at my wits end and the only thing keeping me in this house are my amazing daughters, they’re the best thing in my life and I couldn’t live without them.
I realise this is a long ramble but I just dont know what to do or how to deal with this mess