That's it really. A place to vent. I have a mental health issue (recently diagnosed) which means I have trust issues and currently have only a small support network. I don't work - having young dc x 2. But also due to my m/h issues would probably find this a struggle right now.
Married but there are issues (don't want to go into it here but basically sustainable - no abuse) but not really a source of emotional support.
One family member (male) who tends to monologue. A few friends who I might see once a week/once every couple of weeks.
I'm feeling overwhelmed with recent diagnosis (awaiting therapy) and isolated. I understand now, why I am susceptible to becoming overwhelmed and often feel I need a hand hold or to just talk it out (husband good at resolving practical issues/supporting with dc and will listen if there is an issue affecting dc).
I talk a lot to myself. I found myself talking to a horse yesterday! I feel so much better when I can talk but life seems to present little opportunity. As covid eases, I probably need to just push myself to get out a bit more...volunteering, joining more groups which would bring me into contact with more people...this might help I guess.
Not keeping busy with mentally challenging activity probably just makes things worse as I am not occupied as such and the busyness (like when I was working) didn't give me time to dwell - and helped me to forget other problems. However, in my previous job, whilst busy, it was all about giving and I wasn't appreciated by management. I could only do the work part/time due to my m/h issues (didn't realise what was at the root of my struggle at the time) and when hours were increased I found it difficult to cope. I have an interest which is challenging in this way but my mood has been low and I haven't thrown myself into it lately.
Just to be clear I don't just talk at people, I am good listener too (perhaps have been too good at this in the past). I find myself being the organiser 9 times out of 10, however people don't say no when I contact them so I try to tell myself they are not avoiding me. Perhaps my need to talk is greater and they have others in their lives - more family etc. with whom to do this with.
Anyone found themselves in a similar situation...any advice?