Today just having a shit day. Remembering when oh was going leave me couple yrs ago. Stayed together but just don't get it still. Love him but sometimes look back at how one day everything ok and next day a long relationship almost gone by his choice.
Feel sad and angry a lot of the time.
Don't think I will ever get back that feeling of total trust/safe feeling but living a relationship with him still and have to put that time to back of mind.
It's hard though as I feel resentful inside at that week where he was making plans for us to eventually separate.
Think I am depressed sometimes and know I will never trust anyone again. Something died in me that day and it makes me really sad.
How do other people move forward in same relationship and feel better.