Sorry this is long ......
So, been with DP for 8 years, love him dearly, he literally saved my life many years ago (when we were both 23). Had a lovely future planned, get married, live a happy comfortable life in french countryside. All seems so perfect. On paper.
Trouble is I haven't seen him for 6 months now due to Covid restrictions and, to be honest, I can't stop thinking about all the negatives - his irritating habits, the snidey looks he gave me when I was a bit overweight, the rudeness of his family at times ( when they thought I didn't understand what they were saying in French - but I did). Now the prospect of him coming over and spending the whole of August here in my house when I'm only off work for 2 weeks, is filling me with dread. He used to come over most weekends pre covid, but would spend Christmas /new year with me but I always had to work so I would have to creep around in my own bedroom so as not to wake him up. All this just makes me feel ill. The prospect of just going to the airport to pick him up is giving me the rage.
Sorry for the rant, but my point is I realise I have to finish this with him BUT do I wait for him to come over here? Seems very cruel. Not gonna do it when I go over there in case i get stranded somewhere. So do I finish with him over FaceTime? Seems such a shit way to handle it, please help MN