This may sound so pathetic, but i feel so sad, i feel sad my children who have an absolutely useless dad. I'm sat here at home with my children, my dad's away, my partner has gone to see his children and his dad. And i feel so sad, i feel sad at the fact that this wasn't the way I wanted my experience of having children to be, i never wanted a split family. I see how amazing my partner is with his children and how involved and loving he is, and it breaks me that I and my children got such a crap deal. All these happy family picture's ect and i just long for that, but know that I've had my chance. Anyway here's to the self wallowing