Ex and I split a year ago. We work in the same building but not together. He blew hot and cold when in a relationship and I ended it but still madly in love with him. I ended it because I said I loved him and he said he liked me.
I went no contact. Didn’t speak to him at work, blocked him etc. I spoke to him a few weeks ago and we had a nice chat about us and I explained the hurt he caused me and he apologised and said he gets depressed and was struggling. He said he thought I was great etc etc.
After our chat I didn’t reach out but he did. I wrote on another thread about him telling me his phone was broken which is why he hasn’t messaged me. I didn’t really believe this so went a bit cold on him. He then kept approaching me saying how his phone is broken and going into detail about how it’s broken, and when he’s going to get a new one. I offered him an old phone and he said he was taking an internet break.
I’ve decided I don’t believe him and he doesn’t want to message me, but he’s still stringing me along and keeping me on a hook.
I’m going to avoid him but I still love him and I am deeply hurt he doesn’t want me. I’m attractive, kind, gave him my everything. And he doesn’t want me. He was always hung up on his ex.
He will stare at Me, approach me but that’s as far it’s going. He doesn’t want me.
I feel this pain, a void.
I have hobbies, I have a dd, a home. My life is busy and I have passions. I’m dating wonderful men who are available, kind, pursue me and I don’t want them, I want him.
I’m so fucking desperate for him to love me.
At the same time I’m so fucking put off and angry that he spins me some shitty story about his phone been broken, gives it thought and detail….but the fact is if he wanted me he would come and get me!