So me and my boyfriend have been together for 5 years. We have a two year old son. At the beginning of our relationship he used to go out on nights out a lot and ignore me for hours. Sometimes wouldn't hear from him all night till the next evening at 6pm. We split up for a bit then got back together and I got pregnant straight away. 5 months after I give birth he cheated on me with a girl he worked with. I found out through text. I stayed with him.
Anyway, since the cheating had happened my self confidence has gone right down. Like I feel worthless, ugly, disgusting you name it I feel it. That may sound stupid but I do. I feel like I've lost myself a bit.
We barley have sex, we're never affectionate. I don't remember the last time we told each other we loved each other. I know that's not what makes a relationship but it is nice.
We've been arguing for a few days bevquse im sick of the way he speaks to me. Anyway, we was talking/arguing today and I just said I'm not happy the way this relationship is. He said well I'm a grown woman and I should go make myself happy. Ok I understand that to an extent but why can't he try and make me happy?
I'm too scared to leave him, we rent and I wouldn't be able to afford it on my own. I know he's been with another girl but I can't imagine him being in a relationship with someone else.
I don't know what to do 😩