Feeling vulnerable and scared

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I've been with someone for 6 months now. Its true to say this relationship is the type of one i've always wanted. Respectful, same interests/morals, open chats, don't feel like im walking on eggshells, can be myself and have a laugh.
I can only say i've ever felt this way once before with my first ever bf. Fast forward and i'm now 30.
I've always been untrustful in relationships due to most cheating on me, lying, gaslighting ect.
I've put my trust into this person and i just feel petrified! Feeling this way about them has just made me feel so vulnerable and i hate it, I'd say i've had some barrier up to protect myself but that's slowly ebbed away and I just know they could hurt me so much if they betrayed me.
How do you get over this feeling? It just makes me want to run away where i cant get hurt. I love this person so much and want to let them in but as i've said i'm so scared.

Just take it easy. Don't run before you can walk. You can't let this sort of thing affect you forever, or you'll always be single.

@Singlenotsingle i know, i have done so much work on myself through counselling and building self esteem. I feel like i am in a much stronger and better place. these feelings just creep in and are getting stronger the longer we are together. It's like i am waiting for them to do something bad :(

Not to increase your paranoia op but most relationships end at some point or other. But in the mean time, he hs treating you right and you are enjoying his company so why not just take it as just that?

You cant go through life worrying about being hurt 24/7 because otherwise you would never be able to really enjoy the good times. Whether he is mr right or just mr right now, just try enjoy it whilst it lasts.

I think it helps to remember that other people are there to enhance our life but not to complete it. And its wise not to become too dependent on anyone.

Also...at 6 months in I wouldn't trust anyone as far as I could throw them because you don't really know them yet. You only know the best foot they've been putting forwards.

Just try to chill a bit, it's real life afterall, not disney. You're compatable for the time being. It's all good. Just keep one foot firmly in reality, always.