Urrrggghh been seperated/divorced 3.5 years. Was brutal, sudden, the "script" to a t and not my decision. Ex went off with OW (an acquaintance but do know her) and has set up home with her after lies and lies and lies personally and legally.
After all this time, much therapy, I'm generally fine. Fine for weeks and weeks on end, got myself back on my feet, Kids doing well, nice new partner, i like my job, long spells without even thinking about it etc
Then bang. I just get a divorce cloud that plonks down. Angry at the complications that come with co parenting, the sucking up of things (daddy's new house is massive! Daddy says he's taking us on a huge holiday, daddy's bought xyz and worse all the OW stuff they do with her) and how time poor I am as a working single mother.
He seems to have moved up and beyond (I know a lot of it is fabrication in my head but a lot of what he has is what we talked about one day having).
Life seems peachy for him and he gets to be a very part time dad and all the freedom and income in a new life. OW is childless.
I'm not keen on setting up a full on blended family with my partner as it just feels so complicated (and I read too many posts on here about blended family issues and!!) and frankly don't want to start up all again. I don't want to leave my town/home and he can't leave his because of kids either. So even if I did it certainly isn't as simple as he's been able to move on.
I'm sick of the head space this takes up when the cloud comes. I know the blue sky is above it and I'll see it again but still.
It's galling. Not sure what I'm posting for other than to rant.