I cheated and I feel bad but I want more

[Ineedmoresleep1991]

I am married with two young children. My husband and I have been arguing a lot lately over little things. We haven't been very intimate at all and we haven't been on a date in so long.
Someone I used to go to uni with (and slept with once) messaged me a random message... anyway things took a turn and I sent a pic of me in my bikini, we then started to talk really explicitly about what we want to do to each other... my husband was out at the pub and I Masterbated which I haven't done in about 10 years... I enjoyed it so much.
Today I can't stop thinking about it and how alive it made me feel.
What does this say about my relationship with my husband? I have never text anyone such dirty messages I really don't know what came over me... I have felt so alone and it made me feel so alive. Should I tell my husband? Have I cheated? I am such a terrible wife.

You obviously haven't been on this forum before....... you are going to get roasted.
Your post is fantasy filled/creative writing and I'm not taking the bait.

@TacCat49 I don't know about you but I feel like I'm seeing a lot of this kind of thing lately
Maybe some are legit maybe not but I just feel like there are a noticeable amount of over explicit hard to believe posts at the minute

Well its borderline cheating.
What do you want to happen in your marriage?
Do you want your marriage to improve or do you want out?

Grow up and sort out your marriage.

Guess it's not a problem if your DH has a wank over an ex uni crush too then?

Like OP said. Grow up. Sort your life out.

Yuck

If you’re going to write like that you need to learn to spell masturbate otherwise it just looks a bit teenage try hard.

I wonder what your older relatives are doing today, gardening perhaps? Pruning the roses.

I’ve got a bad weed patch I need to sort out. I put down cat pepper repellant spray but that’s not working. Op do you know what will stop cats fouling in my garden?

Also thinking about buying some bird feeders but worried about rats, or cockroaches. Any advice on that?

Master Bates and Roger the cabin boy...

Oh dear!! I have an English degree too 🙈
I had a mind block with my spelling.
It is borderline cheating. I think I will tell my husband tonight. I never have any secrets from him and I feel so guilty.

Just get yourself a vibrator. I can recommend either the rabbit or the womaniser.

But stop text wanking with the other man.

Is it half term by any chance

Yes, half-term's come around again. OP, you realise we all know you're a teenager who think they're fooling everyone, don't you?

😈

Your husband is your 80%.
Why would you want to throw that away without even trying for that 20% you’re lacking?
These situations never end well.

C- Must try harder (the creative writing, not the Masterbating)

@Landedmydreamjob

If you’re going to write like that you need to learn to spell masturbate otherwise it just looks a bit teenage try hard.

This. 3/10 for the creative portion.

As far as sending bikini photos. How do you know this random won't share them around? Dumb move.

@Landedmydreamjob

If you’re going to write like that you need to learn to spell masturbate otherwise it just looks a bit teenage try hard.

Very much my position too.

@Mandalayblonde

C- Must try harder (the creative writing, not the Masterbating)

😂😂😂

You don’t have an English degree

Yes it’s definitely cheating I’m afraid x

@WildWestWanda

You don’t have an English degree

Well, now, I don't know about that. One of my favourite guilty pleasures during the first lockdown was to go through Facebook groups on homeschooling and find the number of posts beginning: 'Teacher here!' in which the writer would go on to make about three spelling mistakes and a couple of grammatical ones for good measure.