Hi so my mother and I never had a good relationship and it only worsened when I got a bf, before she never cared about seeing me and stuff but now that he is in my life and provides me happiness as my favourite person since I have Borderline Personality Disorder and Majour Depressive Disorder, she finally tries to keep me near her 24/7 she never had her door open with other boys and now she keeps it open 24/7, makes me keep mine wide open and constantly threatens me (uses seeing him as a threat constantly and it destroys and breaks me every time because he is the only source of happiness with my mentality) if anyone sneaks into my window. I have explained how her decisions hurt me multiple times and it only makes her mad and royally stuck up at me like I have to do what she says and I can't have a say about it. She has mentally 0ut me down and body shamed me 24/7 in the years before constantly making me turn to suicide and cutting as a Coping matter and now or so she says "I will get therapy" but I have tried 4 different times each just being dismissed. I have been sexually assaulted and never told her so she only gets more mad when I try to avoid other males and people and have to pretend to be happy or I can never see him again. I have cried constantly every day because of her and what she does. She constantly talks shit about him to me and tries to break us up and separate us when he has tried his hardest to get her to like him and just gave up because she refuses to accept she isn't a mother to me, she's a dictator and control freak with bipolar anger issues. I have tried before to have a relationship and it always seems to be my fault or something I say for her to get really mad and yell at me constantly, when she gets drunk she hits and hurts me, I avoid her and she just pushes me to the edge by forcing me to be around her when all I really want is for her to just stop and leave me alone like before, I only want to live my life and get into college and she makes it hard by always trying to have me around or talk to me unless SHE is the busy one. Any opinions or am I just crazy when I say I hate her and she's a horrible mother?