I dated a guy for a few months and things were so good. We had lots of dates, such a genuinely lovely time together and the connection was actually incredible. It was reciprocal and we were exclusive (he deleted dating apps first then agreed to not see/speak to anyone else) but not official.
A couple of months in, he panicked. He came out of a 6 year relationship just a few months before we started seeing each other and I think he was really hurt by it all. He sat me down teary eyed and said me meeting his friends etc made me realise he’s not ready for someone else to take that role yet. He also said he didn’t feel we were on the same page as I felt quite anxious that day as I knew he was being a bit off. He was apologetic, and said he felt frustrated because I tick all the boxes and he felt awful that dating me essentially made him realise. I suggested taking things slower and he said he really doesn’t even want to be talking to anyone at the moment so I took it quite badly at first but in the end I wished him well, said it’s okay and he needs time to heal and I completely understood.
He ended the day early saying he just wanted to be alone to think, he did say something about still chatting that evening but I said something along the lines of “you either want this or you don’t”. I went home and he texted to check I got home safe. Our last texts were really positive, he was apologetic, called me an angel and reiterated I did nothing wrong. He was the last to text which included a heart emoji.
This was 8 weeks ago now and there has been zero contact apart from he views my story updates on social media. It’s made me quite sad. To be honest I am quite surprised as I thought he potentially panicked when he ended it and he said he felt “headfucked”. All my friends thought he would come running back too. But as mentioned I did sort of suggest the no contact?
I’ve been working on myself for 8 weeks - working out, some dates, spending time with friends. But it’s been HARD and the feeling hasn’t gone away. I just have this overwhelming feeling about the connection we had and I really want to make contact. But I don’t want to disrespect his wishes of not wanting anything right now. I’m honestly so close to breaking no contact though because I genuinely feel like I met the right one (and he said this too). Am I being silly to think if he meant all that he said before, he would’ve contacted me by now? What do I do here?