Always travelling to the airport - never on the holiday. Anyone else?

[ShinyBlackBoots]

Just that really. In life in general but particularly in relationships.

Mid 40s and I feel like I'm taking the scenic route through life. Not intentionally but it's just one wrong turn after another.

I'm wondering now whether I'm always going to be travelling to the airport and whether I'm ever going to board the plane let alone enjoy the holiday!

Anyone else feel like that?

Comes from just having heard so many people say to enjoy the journey. I was. But now I'm not. At some point, I'd just like to feel that I'm at least on the next leg of it!

The yoga studio near me has a comprehensive teacher training programme but it around £2.5k
Is that the only way into yoga? Are there no cheaper courses elsewehere that would at least get you a foot in the door? Is yoga the only activity of that kind you'd consider - not Pilates or something (I have no clue if they are actually similar!)? Would you be able to work full-time as a yoga teacher, would you go part-time?
Could you get a qualification abroad?
Or in college?

Is your remaining child old enough that you could leave them to their own devices more already?

@HollowTalk

Do you have a mortgage, OP? If so, when will it be paid off?

Sadly not. That is part of the other people's decisions that impacted on me. I was in a relationship once. We were saving for a mortgage. I was arrived in fact for a brief while. He spent the joint (mainly my) savings intended for a deposit and lied to me about buyijg a house. When he'd ensure I was completely scuppered, he told me he'd never intended to buy anywhere with me and buggered off. He also left me in a significant amount of debt that was, unfortunately, in my name. It's largely paid off now, and manageable, but I haven't been able to recover from it to the point where i could buy anywhere myself.

So I really am free in a sense. Beyond my children, no commitments to anyone or anything.

How do you make yourself have faith in the universe?