And I’m not sure where to go from here.
It’s been nearly two years now. Neither of us talk about it. It feels too awkward. I mentioned it about two years ago in terms of not thinking it was healthy and it was kind of a prelude to me talking about whether or not we wanted to stay married and how he felt but I didn’t get that far because he then pressured me to have sex - although he probably felt he couldn’t win because there I was saying that I thought it wasn’t great that we never had sex and then when he put pressure on me to do so I still didn’t want it. That was the last time we had sex, or even kissed. It was really unpleasant because prior to that we’d not had sex for maybe three years and to go from that to suddenly being expected to have sex every day for a fortnight was not very nice. But not Dh’s fault either as like I said - he can’t win.
In reference since he’s just said sex isn’t the most important thing and other things matter more.
I feel depressed and torn. I look at my dc and think why am I even considering breaking up their family. And then I also think how can we go on like this forever?